Start off-- I am at my mental breaking point, and was practically in tears on the way home from the OB appt. I know I can do this, but deep down inside I can't take anymore of this. I am at the point where I don't want to be around any of our friends or hear from my family, because I don't want to hear- "Any change?" "Oh, your still pregnant." You know the standard comments. The sad news is we have social things planned this weekend. Would it be bad if I had dh and dd go, and I just stay behind?
The appt. was fairly uneventful. Heartbeat is good, blood pressure is good, weight up 1 lbs, for a total of 34 lbs. No change- still 2 cm and 80% effaced (so Matt was off, but I don't blame him-- he's not an OB) . The OB stripped my membranes to help jumpstart things. We'll see..... I am pretty pessimistic right now, and in a pissy mood. :P
At least I have a date set, which seems an eternity from now. I am scared out of my wits to be induced. At the same time I am down, because I feel like my body is defective. I hope it all successful. I'm sure it will be. I have just accepted the fact that I will have to be induced.
Thanks for listening to my rant.
Crystal
The appt. was fairly uneventful. Heartbeat is good, blood pressure is good, weight up 1 lbs, for a total of 34 lbs. No change- still 2 cm and 80% effaced (so Matt was off, but I don't blame him-- he's not an OB) . The OB stripped my membranes to help jumpstart things. We'll see..... I am pretty pessimistic right now, and in a pissy mood. :P
At least I have a date set, which seems an eternity from now. I am scared out of my wits to be induced. At the same time I am down, because I feel like my body is defective. I hope it all successful. I'm sure it will be. I have just accepted the fact that I will have to be induced.
Thanks for listening to my rant.
Crystal
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