So the little guy is doing really well. He's getitng 1 ounce every 3 hours and is gaining weight! They're still gavage feeding him because he's still too young to suck, swallow, and breathe at the same time. He's got a crusty eye (future Ophthalmologist is a little concerned ) but we're still waiting on the cultures...the crust wipes off easily with saline and his eye doesn't really look inflammed.

I went for my one week recheck appt on Friday at 10 am (appt time 10 am I arrived at 9:40 am). They took me back to draw blood at 10:30 am...then at 11:00 am they took my weight and BP....then at 12 noon I was still waiting...so I went to the desk to ask...I was getting "full" and starting to become ridiculously hungry and thirsty (no food/drink allowed in the waiting room). At 12 noon I was informed that my bloodwork wasn't back yet (no shit they just drew it that morning) and that the staff was going out to lunch and wouldn't be back for an HOUR. Yeah, they got to eat, but I had to sit on my ass and wait?!?!? BS!! I was pissed but very calm. I asked if this was typical, and apparently it is. So I told them that if the doctor had problems with my bloodwork he could call me and I left! So I feel guilty for leaving my appointment, especially since I like the doctors there, but it's the free care clinic associated with the hospital where Russ is at...and I think that the insured patients get the same care as the un-insured...but no one really deserves to be treated like that. At least they could have told me a lie...not that they were going to eat...or told me that I could go get something to eat and come back later when I was more likely to be seen. Ugh.

And unfortunately I think I have mastitis. It sucks. My bras are a little tight...I've ordered new ones, but they haven't arrived yet...and the store in town is out of my size...so I think I was getting a clogged area....I was massaging....but my sister and MIL are here and I started waiting longer in between pumping sessions...and that area is now much more painful...not really swollen or very inflammed looking (yet?) but I"m really achy and I have a fever. So now I can't go see my baby. MIL left today so this am we let her hold him the whole time...so I was going to let my sister hold him a lot tonight...but we can't go...and she's leaving tomorrow afternoon. Russ is off so he's going to take her tomorrow morning....but I'm sad...very sad that I can't see my boy.

And should I got to the doc? Right now, based on all I've read, I should try to manage it at home right now (inc pumping, warm/cold compresses, rest, fluids, etc) but if I have to go in??? I really don't want to go back to that clinic. Wah! This sucks!

At least Daegan is doing well. I'm glad for the ability to vent!