Today:

Today is a not so good day.

When I got there this morning, Daegan was very snotty. He sounded very congested in his nose. He also just looked poo-y. I had the nurse suction his nose and she got a bunch of boogers...he also was having a lot more bradycardias and desaturations (to the 70s)...and was staying low on his spO2 (mid 80s)....so she told the respiratory therapist and his nurse practioner and they decided to do a sepsis workup and culture him for RSV. When the resp therapist suctioned him for the culture, she got a whole shit-ton of crap outta his nose. They did blood cultures, CBC, CRP...his hematocrit was low...but it's been low and it wasn't any lower, but they decided that since he was "clinical" to transfuse him. His CRP was ok though. He really tuckered out trying to bottle his 10am...we ended up gavaging half of it. We gavaged the 1pm and 4pm because he was just doing crappy. After his transfusion he seemed to perk up...and he sucked down the 7pm feeding in less than 10min....a huge first for him....but after he started to look crappy again, and was desat-ing and brady-ing...I think they might end up putting him on nasal O2. It's really sad to see him like this. And it sucked watching him getting stuck for blood and IVs and he had crappy veins that kept blowing...and he would cry and cry...but I stayed around so I could hold him and rock him...I didn't want to leave tonight. And Russ is on call...on his birthday, even...and he was/is getting slammed! So he wasn't able to be around much...but he kept telling me how glad he was that I was able to be there for our little guy. I also requested that they give him my fresh milk from today, instead of the frozen stuff that is from two weeks ago. I figure if he's sick, then I must be exposed to it, and I feel healthy so I must be making antibodies to it...and they should be in my milk....and they should help him. The nurses and the nurse practioner didn't really think so, but they said they'd give him the fresh stuff if it would make me feel better.

Oh and the lactation consultant emailed me back and I think she sounds really knowledgable and nice. I hope Russ agrees that the $$ is worth it.

Go Gators! I hope they win tonight.