I heard from the Department Chair and they have officially offered me the position. Now here comes the kicker. I didn't accept it right away. Something is just....holding me back! Thomas and I have been back and forth on it now for several days. He says this may be my 'last chance' to get back 'in'....and I, suddenly don't think I really want the job. Rolling Eyes

Good GRIEF....yes, there is a huge part of me that wants to do it...and then I think back on how stressed I was last year and how I would possibly manage being pregnant, having 4 children AND coming up with new lectures labs and working with TAs and I know in my heart-of-hearts that the timing isn't right.

So now...I have what I want...and I don't know if I want it.