12/30/2008


First off, thank you to everyone for your messages. I'll get back to those soon.

This definitely hit tonight, and hit hard tonight at calling hours. The services are open casket and while I'm glad we can see her and get some kind of visual closure, it just drove everything home. (duh) She looks.........not good. She looks crooked and awkward in her casket. Her lips are painted a deep brown, though in daily life she didn't wear lipstick and her lips were rosy pink. I always envied her rosy pink lips. There was a ring on her right ring finger that couldn't go all the way down. It was the worst feeling. I'm sobbing my eyes out and we're all grabbing each other. Then through all of this I look up at the big screen where they are running a slideshow and I see this:

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and I CRACK UP. Thanks, Morgan.


Though on my way home I absolutely broke down and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed after I dropped my friends off. How is she gone? WHY is she gone? The call was dispatched at like 9:19pm.......she died after midnight sometime, what time exactly I'm not sure. Why did she die at Marion General? Why wasn't she life flighted to OSUMC or Grant? (Grant is where trauma goes in Columbus) Now all of that starts and it makes me sick.

Then we decide that we MUST go to Larry's, which was Morgan's (and everybody's!) favorite bar. My friend Jew says that she heard Larry's was closing, which was a HUGE shock because Larry's has been open since 1923 or something crazy. So we made impromptu plans to celebrate New Year's at Larry's since Morgan won't be here to celebrate with us. Since Emily lives in Marion, where Morgan's services are, she got home first and checked to see what the deal w/ Larry's on New Year's Eve would be. BAD NEWS....Larry's closed on Saturday for good. It seems silly but we're devastated. It seemed appropriate that without Morgan Larry's just isn't the same, but we thought we could get some closure and say goodbye to Larry's. No such luck. Gone. Poof.

I have no idea how or why my beautiful friend is gone. I am just crying and crying and crying. And now I have to go to the doctor at 8am to find out what the heck is going on with my bladder prolapse, if that's what it is. Then I have to drive everyone back to Marion to the funeral. I just want to crawl in a hole, a dark one, and fall asleep for many days.

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