The Littlest State

[rockgirl]

So... I am new to the private boards and have been reading around this place for the last year or so. I have decided to start a blog because I think it will be very therapeutic for me as I don't have many other outlets these days.

It actually hasn't been all that bad around here. I like the neighborhood where we live, there is lots do do around the city and I have already made a bunch of new friends. Here's the problem... all the friends I have made are of course non medical spouses which is not that big of a deal right?..... I just find it hard to relate to them sometimes. They do not understand the magnitude in which dh is not home. I just cannot join a book club or meet them out for drinks anytime I want. I never know when dh will be home.. it sucks. It is not even the hours that bother me all that much at this point it is the not knowing when he will be home that bothers me. Do I cook for both of us, just me, do I wait for him to eat... I can never figure it out. Post call we wait around to see him... so he can see the baby. That turns our whole day into boring mush. It is an endless cycle and I do not think it will change anytime soon.

I think like most of you here I have to eat when I feel like it, do want I want to do when, and not feel bad about not waiting around for dh to show up. I feel bad that dh does not get to see the baby as much as he would like. He truly is a hands on dad. Last night he was disappointed because I had put the baby to bed before he got home. I know he cares... but the babe needs his rest.

[rockgirl]

Re: The Littlest State

Yeah, so I was going to keep up with this blogging thing. It's obvious that has not happened. Now with the update.

My masters diploma came in the mail last week! I thought all that work was never going to pan out. wooohooo. I actually graduated. I'll probably never use it but hey it's there and done if I need it. Funny how I could have walked across the stage the same day Dh graduated, at the same time literally across the street. I opted to skip mine and attend Dh's. I feel like I should have had my moment too. Maybe for the next degree. Someday, I'd like to go back to school again. I appreciate learning much more as an adult than I ever did during my undergrad years when it was all fun and games. So this phase of our lives is over... the schooling years. Dh was in school and I was working/teaching, we were awaiting the match, awaiting the arrival of ds, I was finishing my master's degree at night and trying to stay relaxed all at the same time. It all worked out and I am happy with the end result errr or is it the beginning. Either way things have settled down..... and now what... What do I do now. I think I need a new goal. hmmmm, I'll have to think about that one.

Staying at home is so amazing. I love being a mom. Ds brings me so much joy, more than I could have imagined. He is soooo incredibly active and curious about everything. He reminds me of Dh so much and he truly is a junior.

I am going to visit the fam next week with the babe. Dh is not so happy about it but hey, I don't make him feel bad about not being around. A good road trip will be good for me. Heading to mom's house and one of my sister's will be in town and the other lives down the street. It's my gram's 75th birthday! My brother will be the only one out of town, but he has to work. sigh. I miss my bro. We are best buddies. We used to live down the street from one another in the cuse and now we live 5 hours away. Hopefully one day we can all settle down in the same area... or at least the same state... we'll see how it works out.

[rockgirl]

Re: The Littlest State

yeah, so I was going to keep up with this blog thing... not going to happen when you have a teething, crawling & cruising 8 month old. Let's see, we have had 4 teeth come in over the past 2 weeks. All on top and my baby looks like a little boy with all those chompers. I am just happy they have pushed through and he is not in so much pain for now.

He is crawling so fast occasionally not looking out for where he is headed and smack, right into the wood entertainment center, smack right into the wall... so he bumps his head, whines for a few seconds, then scales the wall laughing his butt off as he stands up. It's quite comical to watch. He is such a good boy... eats well, sleeps pretty good, we have not mastered sleeping through the night yet, and is happy and laughing all day long. It's amazing how much personality a little baby can produce. He is so much fun.

So my brother's wedding was a blast. It was a busy trip with every minute pre-planed and accounted for. Things went smooth until the ride home. Dh had to work the following morning so we left early evening and ds did not want to relax and sit in his carseat. So he screamed for a while and we stopped a bunch of times. So it goes when traveling with an infant.

I will be hosting my first thanksgiving meal on thursday. I hope the turkey turns out ok. I have never cooked a bird this large before but I am sure everything will turn out great. It's snowing out right now... ahhh my favorite time of year. snow, turkey, eggnog, the fireplace, christmas trees, frosty days... the holiday season is here. I love it!

[rockgirl]

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Since winter has come and gone and spring is here, it's time for an update. I was going to keep up around here but then I find myself busy with other projects...

The past 5 months have been great! We bought a house which although stressful, finally makes me feel like a grownup. We have a great yard, huge oak trees, a basement (finally a basement to put all my stuff), garage for the strollers (instead of fitting 2 in my small car), an office that is not in our bedroom or living room. It could use some updating but everything so far is functional so we are in good shape. ahhhh the joys of home ownership. Hope we will be able to afford the utilities next winter with oil heat

Ds and I have this great playgroup. So we have found some great friends and feel like we are finding our niche around here. Doesn't seem possible that we have lived in this new city almost a year now. I was actually tearing up a bit when I turned in the keys to our apartment because I realized that I had so many memories of firsts for DS there. He went from a newborn to a toddler in that apartment.... and I will cherish those memories forever. I will be able to with the number of picture we took, holy cow. I 've spent way too much money at snapfish, as many parents these day do.

We are working on #2. I was hoping for another before 2008 was over but we will have to make it 2009. We are young there is no rush. We'll just enjoy all the practice The baby is now weaned so I feel like I am getting my body back and am enjoying the late afternoon adult beverages that I placed on the back burner for quite sometime.

The weather has been beautiful around here. The bob has been a great investment and it makes me feel and sleep so much better after I exercise. We are looking forward to the day trips to the ocean and enjoying the outdoors. When I was little we went to the ocean less than 5 times. Now I will be going once a week..... and I am so excited! Gas is getting outrageous but we really don't splurge in any other way. It's worth it. I can cut down in other ways.

Time to make DH his birthday cake!
No call tonight!