Me thinks I need to start blogging...
Hey, all the cool kids are doing it. In truth I've been having lots of thoughts lately and nobody to bounce them off of. Well, I do bounce them off people but DH just rolls his eyes and calls me crazy and my friends half listen and nod. I'll try to inject some fun here and there by posting pictures of my recent aquisitions or drools.
I've recently realized that I'm great at giving advice and objectively dissecting other people's problems and guiding them through but suck at applying this to myself. This past year I've also realized that I can either do a strong Me or a strong We but not both at the same time. If one works well, I question the validity of the other. I can't belive I'm still struggling with this after being together for 10 years and married for 5 of them. During training I worked really hard at building the Me part, which worked great to support me during those years but at the end of residency I realized it was at the expense of We. So these past 7 months I threw everything at the We and somehow lost Me in the process. The transition from training to attendinghood came with a pile of realizations that somehow all came out of the shadows at once. Just when I thought the time for relaxation and enjoyment finally came, instead it was time to address all the issues that have been pushed to the back burner (off the stove out of the kitchen and into the corner of the hallway closet) for close to 9 years.
Trying to deal with all of them at once is hugely overwhelming, so once again I'm trying to ignore them as much as I can by burrying my head in the sand and pretending they're not there. I guess it's time to be adult about this and deal with them one at a time in a calm and dignified matter. May be actually hashing it all out here will help me get a grip and look at them objectively. Instead of trying to duel with myself inside my head (migraines anyone?).
Hey, all the cool kids are doing it. In truth I've been having lots of thoughts lately and nobody to bounce them off of. Well, I do bounce them off people but DH just rolls his eyes and calls me crazy and my friends half listen and nod. I'll try to inject some fun here and there by posting pictures of my recent aquisitions or drools.
I've recently realized that I'm great at giving advice and objectively dissecting other people's problems and guiding them through but suck at applying this to myself. This past year I've also realized that I can either do a strong Me or a strong We but not both at the same time. If one works well, I question the validity of the other. I can't belive I'm still struggling with this after being together for 10 years and married for 5 of them. During training I worked really hard at building the Me part, which worked great to support me during those years but at the end of residency I realized it was at the expense of We. So these past 7 months I threw everything at the We and somehow lost Me in the process. The transition from training to attendinghood came with a pile of realizations that somehow all came out of the shadows at once. Just when I thought the time for relaxation and enjoyment finally came, instead it was time to address all the issues that have been pushed to the back burner (off the stove out of the kitchen and into the corner of the hallway closet) for close to 9 years.
Trying to deal with all of them at once is hugely overwhelming, so once again I'm trying to ignore them as much as I can by burrying my head in the sand and pretending they're not there. I guess it's time to be adult about this and deal with them one at a time in a calm and dignified matter. May be actually hashing it all out here will help me get a grip and look at them objectively. Instead of trying to duel with myself inside my head (migraines anyone?).
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