Life has been so insane lately. I fight with depression and this whole changing my life so completely has put in a mode of really fighting a depression off.
So much has happened lately, I felt that the whole world was crashing down on my head.
So many wonderful things have happened, but there have also been some good.
Just Change
We got married
Moved into his house with roommates (i felt like the odd one out, 3 filipino biochemists, all drove black cars, all animal owners. etc. and me 1 white (and I mean white) girl who drove a beige car, not an animal owner. I am exaggerating of course.. or am I.. anyway on to the next thing
We then played the waiting game for 3 months. (I HATED where we lived, and I could not get along with my husbands dog)
Finally we move about 70 miles north of where we were living.
I start a new job, Admin work still, but a whole new field
Then I found out we were preg
Then I found out I was losing it
Then I found out my bro in law has cancer
Then I lost the baby
Then I got mad at God
Then I got depressed
Then hubby starts school
Then my niece decided she was not gonna live at home anymore.
Then I drove 100 miles to get here (she went to a friends house who was Not healthy for the sit, talked her into coming home with me)
Then I drove 100 miles back home
Then I got caught in the neice drama (she stayed 4 days)
Then I drove 100 miles to take her home
Then we have several meet and greet with the students (i felt soooo out of place) One I actually met a spouse I did NOT like, she was soooo rude. all she talked about was medicine then stops to ask so what year med school are you,, HUH.. Oh no I am not in med school, oh your a nurse. HUH.. I said no I do admin work, not in the medical field. She immediately dismissed me and went back to her original convo.. GGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRR
Then 1 day later my sister calls, and gives me a lecture about giving up my life for my hubbys goals. Yada Yada Yada
I feel so dang lost and alone. I cannot seem to get a grip on this new life. I don't have any friends, I work in a insolated office, rarely come out, I don't know the area, have nothing in common with honey's classmates..
I will get through this .. but dang. I feel like I have been hit by a truck.. :weight:
Oh and all I feel like I have been doing lately is cooking and cleaning. Wifely yes.. Cheryl.. NO :floor: :clean:
There is one bright stop that shimmers for me. My husband. I love him so much and he is worth all of this and more. :md:
Sorry so long.. :thud:
So much has happened lately, I felt that the whole world was crashing down on my head.
So many wonderful things have happened, but there have also been some good.
Just Change
We got married
Moved into his house with roommates (i felt like the odd one out, 3 filipino biochemists, all drove black cars, all animal owners. etc. and me 1 white (and I mean white) girl who drove a beige car, not an animal owner. I am exaggerating of course.. or am I.. anyway on to the next thing
We then played the waiting game for 3 months. (I HATED where we lived, and I could not get along with my husbands dog)
Finally we move about 70 miles north of where we were living.
I start a new job, Admin work still, but a whole new field
Then I found out we were preg
Then I found out I was losing it
Then I found out my bro in law has cancer
Then I lost the baby
Then I got mad at God
Then I got depressed
Then hubby starts school
Then my niece decided she was not gonna live at home anymore.
Then I drove 100 miles to get here (she went to a friends house who was Not healthy for the sit, talked her into coming home with me)
Then I drove 100 miles back home
Then I got caught in the neice drama (she stayed 4 days)
Then I drove 100 miles to take her home
Then we have several meet and greet with the students (i felt soooo out of place) One I actually met a spouse I did NOT like, she was soooo rude. all she talked about was medicine then stops to ask so what year med school are you,, HUH.. Oh no I am not in med school, oh your a nurse. HUH.. I said no I do admin work, not in the medical field. She immediately dismissed me and went back to her original convo.. GGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRR
Then 1 day later my sister calls, and gives me a lecture about giving up my life for my hubbys goals. Yada Yada Yada
I feel so dang lost and alone. I cannot seem to get a grip on this new life. I don't have any friends, I work in a insolated office, rarely come out, I don't know the area, have nothing in common with honey's classmates..
I will get through this .. but dang. I feel like I have been hit by a truck.. :weight:
Oh and all I feel like I have been doing lately is cooking and cleaning. Wifely yes.. Cheryl.. NO :floor: :clean:
There is one bright stop that shimmers for me. My husband. I love him so much and he is worth all of this and more. :md:
Sorry so long.. :thud:
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