My 2014 weight loss *blog*

[PrincessFiona]

You guys are so nice. I've also decided to ditch the Atkins meals. It's not enough food and they are high in calories for what they are. I can do much better making myself a roasted chicken and having salad as opposed to eating a teeny tiny prepared meal. That should help with the miserable feeling.

[Curegirl]

The homemade food sounds better for the soul too

[PrincessFiona]

Thanks Heidi. I may be in that place in my cycle too. LOL. I think you're right about focusing on different goals too. I have a lot to think about.

I appreciate that you care about me regardless of my weight. Thomas also tells me he doesn't care and would love me if I gained 100 pounds. The problem is that I don't like myself at this weight. I feel ugly, uncomfortable, my joints hurt, and I worry about my health as I get older. My focus ends up being the feeling ugly part instead of the joints and health part. For whatever reason (society) the ugly part is what gets me. Sometimes, I feel too embarrassed to go places, especially when I know I'll be the heaviest person there. Psychologically, that is the biggest hurdle for me. It may be healthier for me to be focusing on the impact of my weight on my joints and my future health though. Certainly, it would be a kinder way for me to approach it with myself. I need to do some meditating on that, tbh.

I will say that only 10 pounds lost has made a different for my knees. I make a point to notice it and congratulate myself on it. It hasn't made a difference in my appearance, but my knee pain is all but gone.

I have noticed a shift in body shape. It's been a couple of months since I put on my swimsuit. We are at the cabin and I took the kids swimming yesterday at the waterpark. I couldn't keep the top half of my suit up. I was just swimming in it. It was almost awkward. I know there has been some movement in the right direction.

Kris

[ladymoreta]

That's fantastic news, Kris! I am so proud of you! (And reading your posts is helping me to stay on track.)

[bokelley]

Awesome job! Keep it up!

[Vanquisher]

Way to go!! You're kicking ass!

[GreyhoundsRUs]

Keep it up!!! You can do it!


Wife of a PGY-4 Orthopod

[PrincessFiona]

I decided to give up the low carb for awhile. I just got so frustrated.

Last night, I had a small portion of dinner and then binged on fruit (that I had missed so much). I was down a half a pound today. LOL

Kris

[diggitydot]

Just cutting down on wheat-based items was a game changer for me, but not entirely eliminating carbohydrates.

Seriously, stop checking the scale daily. Limit yourself to once a week, at the MOST. Weight can fluctuate by a few pounds from morning to night. I've actually gotten to the point where I only check once a month because it used to discourage me so much.

[Phoebe]

Limiting grains and sugar did me a big favor in the weight loss dept.

[Vanquisher]

I feel like I have to check the scale daily. When I don't, I lose focus and tailspin into rampant "who gives a fuck" land. Then, when I do weigh, and see the inevitable 5-10 pound gain, it slays me.

Weighing everyday is the only way I've ever been successful. I do realize there are fluctuations, but if I have like 2-3 days in a row of an upward trend, some shit is wrong, and I need to reign it in.

Sometimes I weigh several times a day, even. I only ever mentally track my lowest weight for the day. Mind games I play with myself. Rules for weighing: must be naked. Must be after using the bathroom. Must not have eaten anything in the past several hours.

I sound like a crazy person. Aren't you glad you know me?

[HouseofWool]

I feel like I have to check the scale daily. When I don't, I lose focus and tailspin into rampant "who gives a fuck" land. Then, when I do weigh, and see the inevitable 5-10 pound gain, it slays me.

Weighing everyday is the only way I've ever been successful. I do realize there are fluctuations, but if I have like 2-3 days in a row of an upward trend, some shit is wrong, and I need to reign it in.

Sometimes I weigh several times a day, even. I only ever mentally track my lowest weight for the day. Mind games I play with myself. Rules for weighing: must be naked. Must be after using the bathroom. Must not have eaten anything in the past several hours.

I sound like a crazy person. Aren't you glad you know me?

I generally weigh in a couple times a week to daily. But, I only do it once, it must be first thing in the morning before I have had anything to eat or drink and after using the bathroom. The scale goes on the exact same spot on the floor each time (with wood floors this is pretty easy to do and not quite as crazy as it sounds).

ETA - I do the nekkid thing too

[Michele]

I didn't realize there were other ways to weigh! Naked in the morning after bathroom. I weigh every day to keep myself on track too. Like Heidi, I try not to react unless it's a several day trend.

[PrincessFiona]

A few weeks ago, I gave up dieting. I have literally gained 20 pounds last year with my diets. What I noticed is that I would do a hard core diet for a couple of weeks and would lose up to 10 pounds ... then something would change and I would indulge all of my foodie urges in a week of binging on cookies/french fries/all forbidden foods. So I was in a cycle of deny myself/indulge. I realized that I was stuck and that my habits were really unhealthy.

In the last 3 weeks, I gave up my scale and decided that there is no forbidden food. I can eat anything in moderation.

This is hard for me. Last night, for example, we had pasta with garlic/cheese bread. I allowed myself one slice of the garlic/cheese bread (a no-no) and was still 100 calories below for the day...but I still felt guilty.

I am exercising by walking daily. I had to start with 15 min. a day and work my way up. I truly want to increase my endurance and physical fitness.

I'm just struggling though because I know if I am losing weight (which I might not be) it is very slow. I keep telling myself it is more important to be healthy than thin ... but that's a tough idea to embrace. Part of me still fantasizes about looking like Jennifer Aniston some day.

How do I give up an idealized view of what I wish I would look like? I feel so uncomfortable and big in my body. There is a part of me that desperately wants to be thin. I guess I'm having trouble accepting the idea of just being healthier and giving up on dieting.

Kris

[Curegirl]