I’m so depressed. Despondent. On the first day, Aidan’s host family took us on a tour of the Abby and school where Aidan goes. I have lost 40 pounds but have 80 to go. The 2 hour tour pushed my limits. Then we had to walk down 100 stone steps into the city for dinner. I managed going down fine, but got sick on the way up. First there is the overweight and second the damage from radiation to my right chest. My right lung started making noises. I was done. Instead of finishing the day, the family took us to see ruins that were straight up a steep mountainside. I could not do it. Aidan stayed behind and literally pushed my ass up the mountain. I cried and begged to quit.
Obviously, to the family, I could not keep up with the physical exercise. I was humiliated.
The next day, the family planned a traditional Austrian event: Climbing a mountain to get to a restaurant at the top. WTH? They brought me walking sticks thinking that would help me pull my 80 pound ass up the mountain. Humiliated again. I drank so much Glühwein when I got to the top (with the host mom) that I fell halfway down the mountain.
Every bone, muscle, hair follicle hurts. Today was my day in Vienna alone with Aidan and Zoe and I could barely hobble around. It was hard to be in the moment because I was in so much pain.
I feel deflated. This does not motivate me to lose weight or exercise. It makes me feel so bad about myself.
Kris
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Obviously, to the family, I could not keep up with the physical exercise. I was humiliated.
The next day, the family planned a traditional Austrian event: Climbing a mountain to get to a restaurant at the top. WTH? They brought me walking sticks thinking that would help me pull my 80 pound ass up the mountain. Humiliated again. I drank so much Glühwein when I got to the top (with the host mom) that I fell halfway down the mountain.
Every bone, muscle, hair follicle hurts. Today was my day in Vienna alone with Aidan and Zoe and I could barely hobble around. It was hard to be in the moment because I was in so much pain.
I feel deflated. This does not motivate me to lose weight or exercise. It makes me feel so bad about myself.
Kris
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