Since the time I was 7 years old I have wanted to be a doctor, I have wanted to go to medical school, and I have wanted to practice medicine. Well, I married dh, the family came along, and yada, yada, yada, my plans went kaput.
So, the ILs asked dh the other day if I was planning on going to med school still. He didn't know what to say other than, "I don't know." For the last little while, I had kind of resigned myself to the fact that I would never go to medical school and that I wanted my kids to have parents, I would settle for PA school. After all, I told myself, I may be able to do practically the same thing *if* I decided on pediatrics, for example.
But, then I got thinking (a dangerous pasttime) about what *I* really want, and I'm left with, "I don't know." Ugh. So here are my pros and cons about going to med school vs. PA school. I'm hoping you can all be my online therapists, as usual, and help me sort this out. Have I mentioned that I am so glad I found this board?
Pros:
1. I would feel accomplished and that I did not sell myself short or settle.
2. I would probably not reget it in the long run.
3. It would provide a good example to my children about not giving up on their goals or dreams.
4. I would have more choice and autonomy with my eventual career.
5. I could practice different kinds of medicine if I chose to, like anesthesia.
Cons:
1. Getting into medical school, prerequisites that I would have to take and retake, and the MCAT.
2. Time - far more required.
3. Location - possibility of moving the family and an attending to do this road (also possible with PA school, but for less time)
4. Residency, residency, residency.
I just don't know what to do. If I started soon, I could take all my med school prerequisites while dh is in residency (labs would be tricky), and apply. If I give up on this idea, I may regret it and be further behind. Who knows if there will be a PA school where dh gets a job anyway. Ugh. I have way more baggage than dh did, and he definitely did not have to think of all these things when he decided to be a doctor. I'm just feeling like it is all completely unfair, and I am never going to get to do what I want to do. My kids come first, but at some point, there has to be room for me too. I don't know.
So, the ILs asked dh the other day if I was planning on going to med school still. He didn't know what to say other than, "I don't know." For the last little while, I had kind of resigned myself to the fact that I would never go to medical school and that I wanted my kids to have parents, I would settle for PA school. After all, I told myself, I may be able to do practically the same thing *if* I decided on pediatrics, for example.
But, then I got thinking (a dangerous pasttime) about what *I* really want, and I'm left with, "I don't know." Ugh. So here are my pros and cons about going to med school vs. PA school. I'm hoping you can all be my online therapists, as usual, and help me sort this out. Have I mentioned that I am so glad I found this board?
Pros:
1. I would feel accomplished and that I did not sell myself short or settle.
2. I would probably not reget it in the long run.
3. It would provide a good example to my children about not giving up on their goals or dreams.
4. I would have more choice and autonomy with my eventual career.
5. I could practice different kinds of medicine if I chose to, like anesthesia.
Cons:
1. Getting into medical school, prerequisites that I would have to take and retake, and the MCAT.
2. Time - far more required.
3. Location - possibility of moving the family and an attending to do this road (also possible with PA school, but for less time)
4. Residency, residency, residency.
I just don't know what to do. If I started soon, I could take all my med school prerequisites while dh is in residency (labs would be tricky), and apply. If I give up on this idea, I may regret it and be further behind. Who knows if there will be a PA school where dh gets a job anyway. Ugh. I have way more baggage than dh did, and he definitely did not have to think of all these things when he decided to be a doctor. I'm just feeling like it is all completely unfair, and I am never going to get to do what I want to do. My kids come first, but at some point, there has to be room for me too. I don't know.
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