It's been 6 months since Daegan was born and my C-section and all...Some days I still can't get over what happened. I think those days are lessening in number, but not yet intensity. I hate going back to the OB/Gyn clinic. The first time I was there was the day I was diagnosed with HELLP and Daegan was born. Every time I've been back I feel like I relive that day....but the bad parts not the good, I have a baby part. The general incompetence of the clinic doesn't help either....my last appointment I apparently checked in at the wrong desk (there are two side by side) and they didn't tell me I was at the wrong place until 1 hour after my appointment and the doctor had already left and then was across the street in a section. WTF! I had written the doctor's name clearly at the top of the little paper I have to fill out every time (which is annoying in itself too). The majority of the clinic's patients are medicaid/walk-in/very uneducated....I guess because it's the LSUS clinic associated with the teaching hospital....the "private" patients of the docs are often lumped in with the rest. I guess I feel like I deserve better since I'm paying for freaking health insurance and they've enslaved my husband (OK not the OB/Gyn dept but LSUS as a whole)!! I would find another OB/Gyn but there is only one high-risk OB in the entire area and he's associated with LSUS and only sees patients at that clinic. UF's private clinics were SOOOO much better with organization and patient care. I used to see the head of the OB/Gyn dept at UF in a private clinic...far off campus in a nice section of town. The waiting room was pleasing to look at...though I was never there more than 10 minutes...I was always brought right back to see the doc...and once he figured out Russ was a med student, he would spend extra time with us...not a 5 second fly-by appointment. The nurses were very helpful and pleasant. LSUS is VASTLY different. I don't know if it's because of the prominent population of uneducated/unemployed "I don't care's" or if UF just was that much cooler. When Russ and I were talking about a birth plan for Daegan....Russ rolled his eyes at me for all the stuff I felt compelled to point out b/c UF didn't have strict labor policies...most of the places here do. We are thinking more and more about having other children, but I don't want to have to go through this darn clinic again...and I don't want to be given a really hard time about a VBAC. I guess we could wait until we leave this town, but I really didn't want them that far apart. We don't plan to have another one any time SOON, but I guess I'm thinking about it more because I went to a "Lower your chances for a C-section" talk recently and it stirred everything up. I may be getting my period back soon and my hormones might also be making me a little emotional. I don't know.

In other news, I'm starting to feel better about Daegan going to daycare. I visited the place again when my mom was in town and it WAS really nice. I wasn't looking at it as well the first time...I think because of my internal block against the whole thing. The afternoon ladies were really nice and I think Daegan is going to have fun playing with other babies! He seemed to want to get down and play on the floor with them when we were there. He's made a big leap in his development recently...he can hold objects in his hands and turn them around a little. He still does a lot of dropping and can't pick them up by himself....but it's still pretty neat!!! He's also getting more opinionated about what he wants to do. It's frustrating at times, but I take it as a sign that he's normal and not retarded. April 2nd is the day!

Russ finally had a day off on Monday! WE needed it. He's been really cranky and I've needed a break! When my mom was here I over-planned and Daegan really reacted after his vaccinations and so I didn't feel like I got a break. There was still too much going on even if I wasn't holding him the majority of the time. And with the post-vax fussiness/sickiness he was really needy...and esp for his mama! So Monday Russ and I hung out and just chilled! He mowed the weeds (lawn is dead, weeds...not so much), and cleaned the kitchen. We also took the little guy to Sears for some pics! There are a lot of them! But I wanted to brag!















And here's one of him for my MIL, no she doesn't come here but she sent the scrubs b/c she's so proud that her son is a doctor!

I joked with Russ the other day that it would probably kill his mom if Daegan wanted to be a vet and not a 'real' doctor!

I started sewing! My mom taught me how to use my machine (it's an old hand-me-down from my Aunt)...I started a dress when my mom was here and it's almost done...but I made a shirt yesterday! I'll have to come back and post a pic! It doens't quite fit right....but I'm still learning! My measurements don't match the sizing so I'm still playing around with the sizes...this shirt was a combo of three different sizes and it was still not quite right.

OK must go tend to the babe!