So I'm codependent. I know it. It doesn't really bother me. Russ is pretty tolerating of it. But he's away for the weekend and I'm here with two sickies. Daegan is in his defiant toddler stage and poor Kai is too young to be sick! At least it's just colds and not V+D but still....it sucks and I hate being alone. And with sick kids it's hard to get out of the house and interact with others. I did go for a walk the three of us on Friday and on Sat am I met another mom for a walk (kept Daegan strollered and Kai wrapped - so I didn't feel bad about being potentially contagious)...but that small interaction isn't really enough to stimulate me through a weekend. Poo. So now I'm over tired, whiny and I think getting sick myself. Poo.
I'm sending Daegan to the sitters on Monday morning so I think I may try to catch up on sleep. I've resorted to ordering everything I can online instead of venturing to stores. I'm still scared to take both boys out alone....but am somehow willing to fly with them??? Yeah I'm f'in nuts.

But Tuesday I am getting a cut and color. And I'm leaving Kai to do it. The second kid gets no love. No really, sometimes I feel guilty that I am way more lax about holding him non-stop. He's not as needy as Daegan was (or at least as I perceived him to be - maybe it was my own neediness after the NICU jazz)....but I don't want to short change Kai my attention and affection either. Ahh....well.....the joys of parenting 2....I have more things to second-guess myself about.

Did I mention I'm going to Florida! It's helping me hold on.....I can't wait to see the ocean!!