The rollercoaster continues Rolling Eyes We did a biophysical profile today and the amniotic fluid was up to 9...still a little under where she wants it to be, but it's much improved. The power of bedrest, I guess!

The steroids did cause my sugars to go up quite a bit...above 240 and so now my endocrinologist gets the last laugh. She came in to see me and asked me how my sugars are at home.

"ummm, I...have been a bit complacent about measuring them"

"Sooo..complacent means...not 7 times a day but..what...5?"

"ummm...yes (averting her eyes) maybe 5..or..4..or something sort of like that"

"mmmhmmmm" (I hear her making a mental note that I haven't been checking my blood sugars) She was good natured about it all.

In any case...now I've got forced compliance and...insulin. yippee Rolling Eyes

The mri also went ok. It was hard for me w/o dh there because it is open at the back and he is usually able to talk to me from the head...that way I have the illusion that it is really an open mri even though it isn't. If I moved too much, I could feel the sides..and when I moved my finger once I could feel the top ... I had to work really hard to keep myself from freaking out. I am a bit claustrophobic.

The results were good, but not what I was hoping for. I guess, after 4 cycles, I had expected the tumor to be gone. It is still 2.7cm at it's widest. Granted, that is quite a bit smaller than the 9 and 10cm readings we had before...but its' still bigger than I want. They also couldn't tell if the cells are active or scar tissue...another important distinction. If I do end up with remaining scar tissue, I'm at a greater risk of recurrence...but if the thing doesn't go completely into remission before radiation I don't think that's a good thing either.

DH was elated...."you are going to be cured"...I'm less jubilant..maybe you'd call it cautious optimism? I won't feel ok until 5 years from now.

The rest of the tumor is also situated between both lungs and right near my heart..that may possibly explain the occasional shortness of breath/irritation/fulness I occasionally still feel? I don't know. I'm sure my oncologist would tell me it's all just 'anxiety'..but I don't think so. I had symptoms of this tumor before it was visible on the x-ray even, and I can't help but wonder if the close proximity to the organs coupled with an immune response to get rid of it doesn't cause some inflammation or something???

In any case, this was definitely a good news day unlike yesterday.