Quick Update...I'm at the hospital with Zoe and am taking a lunch break...I'm just waiting for Thomas to finish up with his patients so we can eat together.

Yesterday I was terribly busy with dr's appts. and didn't get home until ~4...just in time to drive Amanda to dance class and watch her goof off and pretend she was a rock star instead of practicing with the other girls for the dance recital. Then I headed over to the hospital to see Zoe (I didn't really get to see her all day because I had to go in for bloodwork then see the OB then go in for the IV antibiotics, etc etc...) Thomas and I dropped by a fast food place for dinner and then got home at 8.30pm.

All of the kids met me at the door with various complaints and then Amanda ended up bursting into tears when I went up to her room with her. She sobbed and sobbed telling me that sure things are ok today, but tomorrow she'll probably come home and I'll be back in the hospital, and that she's sure that the cancer will come back and I will die...and that the kids in school are calling her "cow butt", "ugly" and are telling her "you're a loser and you have no friends".

I held her and sobbed with her....

Andrew hid outside of the door and was throwing in his 2 cents "You're beautiful", and he even said "That's bullshit" Shocked about some of the things the little girls had been saying to her...and I just let him get away with it. I'm so glad to see them getting along a little bit better....He asked her to sleep in his room last night and they laid in bed and talked to each other until quite late.

Once I got them settled (10.30pm) I drove back to the hospital to say goodnight to little Zoe...and came home about midnight. I hated to leave because the nurse assigned to her side of the room didn't comfort crying babies and seemed so rough with the baby she was caring for when I was there.....I just wanted to hide Zoe in her diaper bag and bring her home. Confused

This is harder than I thought it would be....at this point, I thought things would be winding down....in all reality, now that things are more "safe" it seems like everyone around me is kind of losing it....
I'm going to head home after my outpatient antibiotics so that I can be there when the kids get home from school.

Healthwise, I feel sooo much better. Today I notice a dramatic difference in my level of abdominal pain. I don't think I even realized how much discomfort I had until day when it is gone....Thank goodness for the positive!!!!

Off to meet Thomas for lunch....