What a week! Ack!

So Adele had her 6 month shots on Tuesday, she was a trooper. She cried for about 2 minutes after they were done and then she was fine. I would sure love to know where I got such a calm child. :huh:

I can't say the rest of the week was so good. Wednesday our local Side by Side group had a park date so Adele and I went, it was nice to get out of the house and it was a beautiful day but I barely knew anyone and still feel like I don't have much to contribute to the conversations. I don't understand how I've gone from being a strong, outgoing person to being what I am. Its not something that happened with Adele's birth, looking back I think it has come with giving up so much for DH's career. Right out of college I moved all by myself hundreds of miles away from DH, my family and my friends. I was my own person, had my own friends and was good at my job. I gave all of that up to move to CA with DH and ever since then most of our friends are his friends, our moves have been because of his career and now me staying home is mostly because of his schedule. This week has just been a bad week for me emotionally and it hit me like a ton of bricks.

I've realized I don't have good friends here that I can call for anything, that I can grab lunch with whenever. The few I've tried to nurture never call and invite me, its always me doing the inviting and after a while I get tired of always being that one. Part of the problem is that most of the wives I know have multiple children so they've stayed home since they moved here and they have their play groups and things. I've only met one other mom who worked until her son was born about the same time as Adele and I'm always the one calling her.

Then when DH called me out of my MOPS meeting on Thursday night to ask me to come home because of the carpet I lost it. He couldn't get Adele to go to sleep so he pulled me out of the ONE thing that is MINE so that I could watch her while he worked on the carpet, when I yelled at him his response was "its OUR home", I was still pissed. Maybe I had no right to be pissed but I was already having a bad week and guess where he is now. Playing Ultimate Frisbee, when he got the e-mail about it yesterday we thought we would all go but when it came time for him to leave Adele was asleep and I hadn't showered so again he's gone and I'm stuck here with the baby. When she wakes up were going to the mall, I don't care if he's home or not.

Tomorrow is our sixth wedding anniversary, sounds like a great time for it, doesn't it? I'm bitter and he's pissed about all the work he's having to do on the basement. I should have just called someone yesterday and had someone else deal with it.

Ok, emotional over.