I am starting this blog because I want to document this journey that I'm just beginning, I want to see if there's any change in my SO over time, and mostly I want to see how my own attitudes change over time.
Right now, I'm happy. Optimistic. I'm thrilled to begin a life with my SO. I'm strictly positive right now, and can't comprehend in my little head how life can bring me down in the gutters.
I'm head over heels in love. I wonder daily, what I did to deserve such an amazing man in my life.
You know when you're a little kid and at a sleepover at your best friend's house, and you're in the sleeping bag on the floor and you talk about who your dream guy is? Well, back in 6th grade, my dream guy was a blonde skateboarder with a bowl cut hairdo, who looked like Jonathan Taylor Thomas, and would hold my hand and would pass me notes in class. Ten years later- my dream man is tall, dark and handsome, a cultured world traveler who loves to wine, dine, and shop but most importantly, above all, has God in his life and has a heart of pure gold. And this man loves me and considers himself to be blessed for having me in his life. It just blows my mind.
I also want to remember why I fell in love, why I want to be with him forever, why he gives me this euphoric feeling that I'm the luckiest girl. I want to be one of the "lucky" ones with the strong, successful, loving affectionate marriage although I know marriage has nothing to do with love but more with hard work, patience, communication, and support. So no matter how bad things might get, I want to look back and remind myself.
And I do want to work hard. I want to be a better person. I want to stay in shape, stay healthy, learn more, be the best mother I can be to his children. I want to be the best wife, keep the passion, I want to hold his hand even when we're both silver haired.
Life is not meant to be easy. Things will be hard. I can barely take care of myself right now and one day, god willing, I'll have a clan of mini-me's to raise and help shape into well adjusted little people. I just don't know what the future will bring, but I do know that I am blessed and lucky to have all that I do. I know the horrors of this world, I know what goes on a daily basis, and as long as I have my family, my lover, and a home, safe, warm, and very well fed (I love my food!) then everything is ok!
So, I'm a naive, lost, confused just graduated 23 y.o. dating a PGY-1 in general surgery who eventually wants to do plastics/reconstructive surgery. I have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing with my own life, but at least I have one thing figured out: my SO.
So far, so good! Let's see what happens!
Right now, I'm happy. Optimistic. I'm thrilled to begin a life with my SO. I'm strictly positive right now, and can't comprehend in my little head how life can bring me down in the gutters.
I'm head over heels in love. I wonder daily, what I did to deserve such an amazing man in my life.
You know when you're a little kid and at a sleepover at your best friend's house, and you're in the sleeping bag on the floor and you talk about who your dream guy is? Well, back in 6th grade, my dream guy was a blonde skateboarder with a bowl cut hairdo, who looked like Jonathan Taylor Thomas, and would hold my hand and would pass me notes in class. Ten years later- my dream man is tall, dark and handsome, a cultured world traveler who loves to wine, dine, and shop but most importantly, above all, has God in his life and has a heart of pure gold. And this man loves me and considers himself to be blessed for having me in his life. It just blows my mind.
I also want to remember why I fell in love, why I want to be with him forever, why he gives me this euphoric feeling that I'm the luckiest girl. I want to be one of the "lucky" ones with the strong, successful, loving affectionate marriage although I know marriage has nothing to do with love but more with hard work, patience, communication, and support. So no matter how bad things might get, I want to look back and remind myself.
And I do want to work hard. I want to be a better person. I want to stay in shape, stay healthy, learn more, be the best mother I can be to his children. I want to be the best wife, keep the passion, I want to hold his hand even when we're both silver haired.
Life is not meant to be easy. Things will be hard. I can barely take care of myself right now and one day, god willing, I'll have a clan of mini-me's to raise and help shape into well adjusted little people. I just don't know what the future will bring, but I do know that I am blessed and lucky to have all that I do. I know the horrors of this world, I know what goes on a daily basis, and as long as I have my family, my lover, and a home, safe, warm, and very well fed (I love my food!) then everything is ok!
So, I'm a naive, lost, confused just graduated 23 y.o. dating a PGY-1 in general surgery who eventually wants to do plastics/reconstructive surgery. I have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing with my own life, but at least I have one thing figured out: my SO.
So far, so good! Let's see what happens!
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