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Its funny to read this post because we just went to my husband's end of the year picnic. I hope this doesn't sound obnoxious, but I have never had any major self-confidence issues around medical residents/attendings, etc.- - I think it helps that I have done alot in my own career and haven't had to put everything on hold as I know some medical spouses have generously done for their families. Also, my husband's medical school residents are nice and bright, but definitely no genuises there as far as I can tell even though its a solid academic program. What I generally see at these gatherings is alot of well-intentioned, driven, and utterly self-consumed young people! My advice to original poster is to remember this last thought at every event.
Also, I am wondering if any of you have advice for me not so much about confidence but about conflict management. The problem I am having is that after each event DH makes some comment that I talked too much about X, could I not mention Y, I am obsessed about talking about Z, etc. Normally, we have a supportive and pretty non-critical relationship -- we have been together for years and he has always been my biggest fan. And, prior to this, he has been pretty normal socially - - that is, not anxious about work and social events. Anyway, the first few times this happened I just tried to not talk about whatever subject had upset him the last time. However, at this picnic, it happened again and I went ballistic. (He also failed to introduce me to his program directors when they sat down at our table- - in past events, I have gone up to people and introduced myself because dh is such a nervous wreck that he forgets).
Anyway, we had a huge fight, I told him I was not going to be censored and that I had thought he had developed so much anxiety during this first year of residency that he should seek counseling instead of devoting his energy to editing me. It was/is awful. He is worried he has become rude and hypercritical (this has some truth; at least at these stupid events) and says he feels very anxious about the residency and can't shake off feeling anxious/depressed (also relevant: he has had five months of call straight and in the last few he has really started to show the strain). Even though I am TRYING not to take this to heart, I have the sinking feeling that I have let him down.
The irony of the whole situation is that I get along very well with his fellow interns, one of them is joining my new Cooking Light club, one invited me to visit her and her fiance in Greece, another one asks if I am free for parties and jokingly (we think) tells my husband he can come too. The further irony is that I try so hard with these people because I want to make my husband's residency as nice and supportive and friendly for him as possible - - other than the normal human desire not to be disliked, I don't care particularly what these people think of me and I have enough concerns about impressing my own colleagues to worry about impressing his!! However, I care enormously about what my husband thinks of me. In the pre-residency past, he would always tell me he was excited to show me off to his friends. What has changed?
Any advice? Has DH turned into a monster? Has anyone experienced this type of criticism brought on by residency events? I am torn between feeling that I am somehow not enough for DH at these stupid events, being completely ticked off that anyone thinks they have the right to micromanage my social interaction, and worrying that DH has gone off the deep end in term of stress and anxiety.
Its funny to read this post because we just went to my husband's end of the year picnic. I hope this doesn't sound obnoxious, but I have never had any major self-confidence issues around medical residents/attendings, etc.- - I think it helps that I have done alot in my own career and haven't had to put everything on hold as I know some medical spouses have generously done for their families. Also, my husband's medical school residents are nice and bright, but definitely no genuises there as far as I can tell even though its a solid academic program. What I generally see at these gatherings is alot of well-intentioned, driven, and utterly self-consumed young people! My advice to original poster is to remember this last thought at every event.
Also, I am wondering if any of you have advice for me not so much about confidence but about conflict management. The problem I am having is that after each event DH makes some comment that I talked too much about X, could I not mention Y, I am obsessed about talking about Z, etc. Normally, we have a supportive and pretty non-critical relationship -- we have been together for years and he has always been my biggest fan. And, prior to this, he has been pretty normal socially - - that is, not anxious about work and social events. Anyway, the first few times this happened I just tried to not talk about whatever subject had upset him the last time. However, at this picnic, it happened again and I went ballistic. (He also failed to introduce me to his program directors when they sat down at our table- - in past events, I have gone up to people and introduced myself because dh is such a nervous wreck that he forgets).
Anyway, we had a huge fight, I told him I was not going to be censored and that I had thought he had developed so much anxiety during this first year of residency that he should seek counseling instead of devoting his energy to editing me. It was/is awful. He is worried he has become rude and hypercritical (this has some truth; at least at these stupid events) and says he feels very anxious about the residency and can't shake off feeling anxious/depressed (also relevant: he has had five months of call straight and in the last few he has really started to show the strain). Even though I am TRYING not to take this to heart, I have the sinking feeling that I have let him down.
The irony of the whole situation is that I get along very well with his fellow interns, one of them is joining my new Cooking Light club, one invited me to visit her and her fiance in Greece, another one asks if I am free for parties and jokingly (we think) tells my husband he can come too. The further irony is that I try so hard with these people because I want to make my husband's residency as nice and supportive and friendly for him as possible - - other than the normal human desire not to be disliked, I don't care particularly what these people think of me and I have enough concerns about impressing my own colleagues to worry about impressing his!! However, I care enormously about what my husband thinks of me. In the pre-residency past, he would always tell me he was excited to show me off to his friends. What has changed?
Any advice? Has DH turned into a monster? Has anyone experienced this type of criticism brought on by residency events? I am torn between feeling that I am somehow not enough for DH at these stupid events, being completely ticked off that anyone thinks they have the right to micromanage my social interaction, and worrying that DH has gone off the deep end in term of stress and anxiety.
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