Well, I think the moving depression is hitting me late...I adjusted pretty well for the first 6 months...but the weather has been crappy for a looooong time now...and I'm starting to feel a "This is it?" feeling really strongly. I don't really sense a strong feeling of community here...and as committed as I am to motherhood, I simply have to do something for myself...I'm losing my mind, spending endless hours online just to tap into some adult conversation.....it is ridiculous!
It really struck me this weekend how much I really need some time without children....The hospital hired a local daycare center to watch the kids on site at the hotel...and they had a BLAST!!!! I don't know how I talked myself into believing that being at home 24/7 with no time for myself at all...not even a potty break...was the best way for me to raise my children.....or that it is even the best thing for children...I do think that children can benefit alot from the social interactions with other children... Isn't there something inbetween?
I desperately want to get out and do some things without my children...I am feeling the walls caving in on me....there are no Universities that are close enough for me to realistically consider (no money if there were), nor are there any job openings in my field...not ONE!
I'm desperate to do something...which has to be obvious by the fact that I'm online all of the time...............Any advice on getting through this yucky time? I know it takes about a year to adjust to a move.......but I'm already mentally planning my escape from here.................
Kris
Time is a Dressmaker, Specializing in Alterations!
It really struck me this weekend how much I really need some time without children....The hospital hired a local daycare center to watch the kids on site at the hotel...and they had a BLAST!!!! I don't know how I talked myself into believing that being at home 24/7 with no time for myself at all...not even a potty break...was the best way for me to raise my children.....or that it is even the best thing for children...I do think that children can benefit alot from the social interactions with other children... Isn't there something inbetween?
I desperately want to get out and do some things without my children...I am feeling the walls caving in on me....there are no Universities that are close enough for me to realistically consider (no money if there were), nor are there any job openings in my field...not ONE!
I'm desperate to do something...which has to be obvious by the fact that I'm online all of the time...............Any advice on getting through this yucky time? I know it takes about a year to adjust to a move.......but I'm already mentally planning my escape from here.................
Kris
Time is a Dressmaker, Specializing in Alterations!
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