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I've contributed to these threads in the past so I'll update where I'm at in this. I haven't weighed myself in 2.5 years. After half a decade of unsuccessfully preventing weight gain I ditched the scale and joined CrossFit. I did not, in fact, trim up and become a fit babe through this. I started gaining muscle. I went from being a small/medium shirt to medium/large and then just straight up large. But in that time I fell in love with powerlifting, and somewhat with Olympic lifting. I didn't actually stop dieting of course, it just was no longer tied to the scale. Last fall when I was working towards a 200lb beltless back squat (free bar out of the rack, engages way more muscles than a machine) I decided to forget weight loss entirely. I ate when I was hungry, indulged, sure, but also tried to make good decisions. That definitely didn't turn me into a fit babe but the spared mental and emotional energy was life changing. Heading into last month I started telling people I thought I might be ready to start a diet. I am the biggest I have ever been but I am oh.so.happy. And even feeling massive, I am the fasted and strongest I have ever been in my life. I realized that if I have to be this big in order to retain my happiness I'll never do another diet again. But I felt I might be ready to do this in a way to avoid all of the pitfalls of shame and fat fear I'd developed over the years. I came back from a NYC trip with a friend and decided to take the plunge.
I'm wrapping up week 3 of the Renaissance Periodization templates, a diet designed for Crossfitters and weightlifters. The macros, essentially, a shit ton of protein, are designed for fat loss with minimal muscle loss. I still haven't weighed. And what's even healthier for me, I committed to cutting out alcohol for 11 weeks. There is a planned break for Labor Day when we're traveling, but 6 weeks, break, 5 weeks will still be a major feat for me if I can get through. We are nightly drinkers, so cutting out that alone I should be losing 1-2lbs a week. The thing is, since I'm not weighing, and since I've had this time away from the diet mentality, all of these changes are registering to me as developing a discipline. Changing my mindset. I don't have that hyper vigilant attitude of "is this working??" It's more like, I've committed to doing this like I've committed to my exercise schedule without worrying what the results will be. I do have some hope, but I try not to indulge in it too much. Keep your fingers crossed for me. I'd like this to take me into October, break for the holidays (there are maintenance macros I might try to abide by) and then start another round in January. Weekends are of course the hardest. I've almost caved a couple of times but I cannot sing enough praises for THC edibles.
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