Re: A day in the life of...
November 19 continued....
Where did I leave off? Oh yes, how I've failed my daughter. In my head I know that I didn't. In my head, I know that we gave her the best life possible. We didn't get to chose whether she would live or die - but we did get to choose *how* she would die. In a hospital after weeks/months of surgeries and infections and ventilators and pain or at home surrounded by nothing but love. I know we did our best to show her all of the good things in life....... But in my heart, I've failed as a parent. Isn't our job to keep them safe and healthy until they are grown up? And I didn't do that. I failed to keep her safe and healthy. I wonder if that feeling of failure ever gets better.
November 19 continued....
Where did I leave off? Oh yes, how I've failed my daughter. In my head I know that I didn't. In my head, I know that we gave her the best life possible. We didn't get to chose whether she would live or die - but we did get to choose *how* she would die. In a hospital after weeks/months of surgeries and infections and ventilators and pain or at home surrounded by nothing but love. I know we did our best to show her all of the good things in life....... But in my heart, I've failed as a parent. Isn't our job to keep them safe and healthy until they are grown up? And I didn't do that. I failed to keep her safe and healthy. I wonder if that feeling of failure ever gets better.
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